We have been encouraged to consider ways of capturing our making and practise, in order to help develop and inform our work, through a process of reflection and observation.
Initially I was daunted by the idea of having to capture a making process on camera, the idea of being 'seen' made me feel uncomfortable and self conscious. I remembered the feelings evoked during the process of making the piece above and I thought it would be interesting to see how this could be developed.
I chose to draw on the floor as this offered a greater freedom and range of movement, I used charcoal blocks instead of graphite this time as I was interested to see how marks could also be achieved through using my body as a drawing tool.
After an initial sense of apprehension due to the presence of both the Go-Pro and Tripod cameras, I knew from the emotional experiences I encountered during the production of my previous gestural drawing that it was important for me to be centred, relaxed, and my thoughts still, in order to maximise the opportunity for creativity and enjoyment. I chose a piece of music I really love called"Adagio for Strings" by Samuel Barber to accompany me during the drawing process. I thought it would help both with the movements and gestures, as well as serving to distract me from the watching lenses.
As I began to draw I forgot about the cameras, the gestures and movements almost felt like a dance between the paper and myself. The charcoal was very soft and made a very reassuring sound as it was swept across the material. The whole process of both the sounds and repetition of movements felt very sensory and cathartic. The pattern I was making became irrelevant and the drawing became about simply the gestures and movements in different directions. Towards the end of the drawing the charcoal ran out, I continued making the gestures with my hands until the musical piece ended.
As well as capturing the drawing process on video I took several still photographs, some of which can be seen in my studio space and in my sketchbook. The pictures have taken on a 3 dimensional quality where the material appears to stand out from the paper which was a surprising but very pleasing effect.